Me, myself, and my things.
Despite being connected to everyone I have ever met at all times thanks to phones, the internet, social media (all of it) it doesn’t change my feelings of connectedness if another body isn’t also present.
Finding ways to be comfortable in this solitude, this time of year in particular, can be hard.
Being alone can feel like a punishment instead of an opportunity.
[Facing ourselves can feel like a smack to the face]
As I’m reminded of the feelings that come with crisp weather and warm blankets, I fight to find the place that keeps my head above water.
Below the water is nothing but endless Netflix binges, lonely nights, and an uncomfortable sea of thoughts.
I always have loved the feeling of wrapping myself in endless layers. Tank top, sweatshirt, sweater, scully, scarf, and boots that cover half my leg. I consider it the adult equivalent to swaddling a newborn baby.
The comfort I feel even once I’ve entered a room and now have two layers instead of three.
The comfort of being clothed, being protected. I’m at ease. I’m more me.
This comfort can intensify when at home and alone.
Despite being connected to everyone I have ever met at all times thanks to phones, the internet, social media (all of it) it doesn’t change my feelings of connectedness if another body isn’t also present.
Finding ways to be comfortable in this solitude, this time of year in particular, can be hard.
solitude is better with the Sun
Grand Anse beach, Grenada
Being alone can feel like a punishment instead of an opportunity.
[Facing ourselves can feel like a smack to the face]
What’s the point of living a life that is either incredible or mediocre if there’s no one to share this experience with? [sea of uncomfortable thoughts]
As I’ve grown spiritually, I’ve learned circumstances are reflections of what we need to learn and heal about ourselves.
What is the opportunity of solitude trying to teach me?
[What do I need to learn about myself? What am I afraid to confront?]
What if this is an opportunity to deal with the only constant relationship I’ll ever have, the one with myself. What if this is a time to deal with my side of the street.
An opportunity to look around and say is this where I want to be, who I want to be, how I want to live?
I’ve had the tendency to put my world on the backburner in order to nurture a new world I’m creating with another.
I have greater understanding in how important it is to our future for us to honor our gifts and assignments as we build unions, raise families and evolve as individuals.
We’re now in a time where we can make our own moves and create something brand new.
Creating a space that’s more me by adding an element of design to my apartment kitchen drawers
For the first time we have a celebrity as a president and that’s because he refused to put any barriers on himself. And that’s all it takes to have the ideas in our minds come to life.
There are no more norms. No more rules.
This is freedom. This is also responsibility.
The ability to create a world that looks and feels in alignment with the authentic self and purpose, sounds like more than I can honestly chew.
Back to the comfort of layered clothes…
I imagine this same comfort can be brought on by things. The things in our lives that help explain our inner most desires and ideas about ourselves.
The things that describe our life story, identity, and culture.
These things are meant to clearly communicate who we are without having to explain it ourselves.
That’s why we hold onto them, that’s why we’re afraid to let so much go at once.
Only a couple things at a time. Only one layer at a time.
Taking off too many layers [getting rid of too much] at once leaves us with the only layer we truly need to live, our skin [authentic protection].
Seeing everything about ourselves that the eye can see, everything that makes you unique, an original. Then being comfortable there, that’s brave, that’s power, that’s truth.
Facing our clutter, past decisions, and commitments can feel like too much truth to handle at once and alone.
With another person it can certainly feel more manageable.
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And when that’s not possible all we can do is manage one thought at a time, one pile of clothes, one decision, one drawer.
But who’s ready to face their truth? Not I! lol
But I’m working on that.
I know facing the truth of who I am and who I’m not, is the first step at creating an authentic world in alignment with why I’m here.
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Declutter the Mind | Home Healing series | Week one
What helps me declutter my mind most...What I tell myself about myself and journaling.
I heal a lot through journaling. I often don’t know how I feel until I write it all out. When I look back at my thoughts, I often laugh. Things can be so trivial but appear expansive in the present. Choosing our perspective is a gift.
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Declutter the mind hang-ups
My biggest hang up with maintaining a clear mind is getting to bed on time to get my 7-8 hours of sleep.
I love making irresponsible decisions:
Engaging with people way past my bedtime.
Posting on social media past 9p. I found Linked In’s “professional-social network app” got lost in that.
Didn’t change the mood at home when it was time to transition to bed. [Changing the atmosphere is a good way to signal the brain of what’s to come.]
What I’m consistent about
Journaling
Brain dumping
Being in silence
Spending time alone
Spending time in the flow
Meditating
Rubber band exercise [currently pretty new, but from the day I found out about it I’ve been hooked]
Ways I Attempt to Improve
Dim lights and light candles at 9p [what I hate the most about this is it makes me feel like I’m getting old. I’ve been going to bed at 2a since childhood. Mama’s got a bedtime now and doesn’t like it.]
What helps me most
What I tell myself about myself and journaling.
I heal a lot through journaling. I often don’t know how I feel until I write it all out. When I look back at my thoughts, I often laugh. Things can be so trivial but appear paramount in the present. Choosing our perspective is a gift.
I am getting faster at shutting the critic down. We [me and the critic] would have arguments that lasted days sometimes weeks. Choosing to entertain the unfortunate, the negative, the lowest of thoughts. As I unlearn and retrain my way of seeing the world and myself in it, I’m getting better at asking why I’m seeing an experience in one way over another. This insight helps me stay clear on what’s true and what matters.
Am I the only one out here obsessed with using the hell out of my brain or are you in this camp too? In no way do I expect to be a robot in control of my mind at all times, however I am aware many of us are on autopilot. Living a reactionary existence instead of one with intention which ends up working to our demise.
How do you clear your mind?
What’s something new you’ve tried?
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