Preserving people.

Friendship breakups- processing letting go of best friends

keeping moments close to my heart
the relationship meant so much
if all i get to have is threads, the pop-up of your name, the small image of your face
i'll take what makes me remember
every air grasping laugh
every crazy adventure
every phone call that lasted hours

the xanga site we shared talking our shit at 13
our gang name and childhood schemes
no new friends, that was us
we cuffed new friends 
but knew who to trust

not having yal part of me feels like a part me is gone
her image has been fading for so long
i was scared of what it meant to lose a part of me 
slowly and abruptly
the part of me scared to fly
always needing security by her side

virgos love adventure
i take flight every time i step outside
trembling but not afraid
for the universe keeps me safe

ive learned there's more to learn 
about friendship
connection
growing with someone
feeling safe enough to glow with someone

there's more to learn about the friendship i have with myself 
if you continue living
you will evolve past what you are used to

looking back i know where the path goes 
looking ahead unknown beauty will unfold